As the title states, i decided to make a blog dedicated to my hiatus. it’s just me posting about stuff. miscellaneous stuff.
i don’t feel like piling my other blogs with messages like “ugh still on hiatus.” “while on hiatus i did this” “hiatus still there” “hiatus added me to its best friends list”
so i decided to make a blog for it. whatever i have to say, whether it be about anime or games or anything else, while i’m on hiatus, will be in that blog.
as such, if you wanna leave me messages or check up on how i’m doing xD that’s the best place to go. lol
link to it is this:::: http://a413-hiatus.tumblr.com/
dunno what to do for the layout. i don’t have the time nor internet connection to keep testing different layouts until i find one that’s right, or editing and dabbling with the html code. so i’ll just have to take anything miscellaneously. xD
you mean besides the fact that it’s not showing me my notifications? XD other than that i don’t notice much of a difference, but that could just be because my net time is limited .-. so all i rlly do is log in to check replies from you. and stalk your page @v@ <3 which is luvly btw! i luv your new layout! u never fail to impress!!! i’m still working on my java skills. i’ve finally reached my first project (textbook project). i’ve read over 500 pages worth of java learning, but it was just introductions and definitions and explanations. but now i’m up to the part where they actually get you started on making your very own program. they say from there i can do what i want. xD i think the first thing i wanna try making is a theme generator. cuz it’s simple lol. they’re also gonna teach me how to make GUI and stuff so i dunno. i might be able to send you the theme generator i make Or upload it on tumblr XD fun fun. in the mean time send me some ideas of things you’d like to see in a art-theme generator <3
yes, i’m alive ;w; *huggles* and i didn’t get any notification whatsoever of all these messages until i checked my email XD isn’t there supposed to be a pop up thingy to let you know when someone asks you on the site when you log in? *hugs* <3
uwahhhh i’m so void of human contact. Like for real.. how many months has it been since I was on hiatus?!
I still need a bit more time to pick things up in life. That’s just the way life is, sadly.
I hope no one’s forgotten me. @//^//@ that’s be terrible because I’m like.. now in a seclusive state. After I get back online, it’s gonna be even more difficult for me to make buddies, even in online games if not especially.
The only peoples I got nowz are aozo-kun and leafy. I got others but V//-//V); I’m too ashamed to talk to them. (that story will wait for another day).’
I’m doing the best I can. I need the internet so bad. =_= Not even just for social and entertainment purposes, but let’s face it.. life in general revolves around the internet. We’re in an age (at least in America) where everyone, every company, possibly even the government, expects YOU to have an internet connection. And in times of disaster, you do not want to believe the *magicarp* you have to go through when you don’t have an internet connection at home. Yes, pokemon FTW.
sigh.. I feel like my life stopped >A< got harder and stopped at the same time. UGH. But I’m doing what I can. My family finally acknowledged that internet is a major life necessity so they’re going to actually “focus” now on fixing that problem. So don’t give up on me aozo-kun >-< leafy..
note - I messaged you on pixiv, aozo-kun >0< )/ <33333333333333
l8r - until i find the time for us to meet again, tumblr.
I found out last week actually that it got an anime. XD There was only one episode up at the time, but since anime usually gets updated weekly, there might be two to three available (subbed).
I’m not gonna watch it though. XD
I luv the series a bit toooo much to watch it. I’ve been stalking the manga for the past 4 to 5 months. And I just enjoy it so much <3
I learned my lesson from Death Note that reading the manga first pays off. xD I’m positively sure the anime is good and will be popular. Same as Death Note, Ouran High, and so on was uber popular in their adaptations.
But I think I’ll stick with the manga for now. When the manga is done and finished I’ll probably go back and try the anime.
Same thing for Skip Beat. Love the manga SOOOOOOOOOO much. But I have not tried the anime. I also heard that there was going to be a korean drama adaptation of it using members from Super Junior. <3 Haven’t seen any progress at all with that, but if that project is still under way I’d love to see it. <3 Kdrama adaptations of shoujo anime series seem to always end up EPIC. @-@ Boys Over Flowers, shyaaaaaa<333333333
But even so, I won’t be watching any anime or kdrama of Skip Beat either until the manga is done. And if the manga doesn’t end well, I can always depend on the kdrama for justice since it’s become a really COOL <3 trend to modify lots of things, including the ending, in drama adaptations. That’s what makes it so fun to watch <3
So yeah, if you don’t know what Kamisama Kiss is and you’re unsure of watching it. You don’t have to do what I’m doing (reading the manga first). Though to get the most out of the series, that’d be the safest bet in case the anime ends up failing. But as an avid reader and fan of the series, I think it’s wayyyy too good to have it’s anime be screwed up.
So plunge into KKiss without fear. I believe the anime version is referred to as Kamisama H or “Kamisama Hajimemashita”. Go for it. The artwork of Julietta Suzuki (I hope I got her name right) is beyond awesome. And the series is funny with great characters and sense of humor. I have to warn you that “love interest” wise it’s kinda slow progress. But the overall feeling is like watching something between Spirited Away and… aw man what was that name… @0@ uh… oh yeah! InuYasha. I apologize. It’s been so long. Me and InuYasha go way back.
But if you liked either of those things and you enjoy the shoujo genre, this series is perfect. Like really, don’t question it.
If you’re excited over it, well, the anime is brand new. So what you see online is pretty much what’s available at the moment overall. If you can’t wait that long or when it comes to watching stuff that is expanded with lots of “to be continued…” and stuff, then you’re better off with the manga to hold you off first.
But it’s a great series. Just try it whether it’s the anime or the manga. xD
I know from experience how this series is so I’m gonna do my best to be patient and wait it out. As difficult as that’s gonna be because there’s bound to be lots of fans and promotion for the series and equally as much people in your blog following who will be spamming pictures and animated gifs and parodies and fandom like a brazillian soccer player making goals. so…
and on another note, no i’m not off of hiatus yet. XD *tears*
This is NOT a full review, but a semi review of someone who is up to the latest (american released) volume of the manga. I am telling you now, XD brace yourself for them “to be continued…”. Because even one whole volume of the manga puts me on edge waiting for the next one. It’s not too bad, but. Like I said, the romantic development is not that fast. XD And sometimes the story arcs span to over more than one volume. But it’s usually 2 at most or 1 and a half. So it’s never that terrible. But anime usually covers 2 - 4 chapters worth of manga. So yes, brace yourself. xD But enjoy it~~~ <3333333 I know you will <3333333
I plan on coming back very soon. So please, XD don’t consider this as something that will amount to some kind of 2 yr hiatus or something. It’s not like that.
Don;t forget me ;A; )7
In the mean time, while I has no internet and stuffs, I found lots of nice manga that I’ve developed an interest in. But I still want my internet. T=T
Leafy, aozo-kun, hang in there 4 me. Don’t give up on art and video games. I will punish you if u do. lolz With a several hour lecture via typing on why video games and art is the awesomest. @-@
something happened to me today. @-@ i will not be able to use the internet for a while. perhaps even a long while. perhaps more than a month or so.
i guess you can say it’s something of a tragedy. sure feels like it.
apologies to aozo-kun and leafy whom i said i would meet on thursday.
sadly, it’s currently impossible for that to happen.
stay tough you two. and don’t forget me.
p.s. - no this is not a suicide note. @-@ don’t panic so much.
TAT but ima miss u. ima miss u 2 a whole lot.
bleeding long & i can’t fit in enuf words in here, but yosh i agree. Draw as it pleases u. Give ideas some form so that at least u have that to remind/prompt u. u can refine it later as u get better/earn new skills - but most of all, draw for urself.
thas right >O *huk huk* <3
i have a lot of backed up ideas though. time to get through them xD rofl.
I’m not going to lie. I’m going to be honest with myself. As much as possible.
I think I have developed self-confidence issues with my artwork.
It’s not that I don’t like my work. It’s not that I don’t have ideas.
It’s just that I keep convincing myself that my skills aren’t up to snuff. That I can’t draw as well as certain people. That I’m not pro. So the ideas that I have in my head, I keep fooling myself into thinking: “It’s best not to waste such good ideas now. If you waste them now, you might not be able to use them later. You might not have the incentive to go back and revise it later. You should save them for much much later when you can draw better. For now, just focus on drawing better.”
But I know that that’s the wrong thing to do.
I’m not thinking along the lines of “Having no self-confidence in your own work is wrong.”
Actually, it’s just very frustrating to me to live like this. T-T
Every idea I get, pretty much feels like a good idea or something that has the potential to be a good idea.
And I’m not going to draw nor feel like drawing something that is a bad idea.
And I’m not going to be able to draw anything if I have “no ideas”.
So unconsciously, without being aware of it, my mind’s way of thinking, has rendered me unable to draw.
The frustrations I have when I draw a picture. I don’t think it’s because I personally think I draw badly (even though I keep constantly comparing myself to professionals and thinking I’m not as good as them. I don’t necessarily think I draw “badly”.) I think the frustration I have with my drawings is that I’m not drawing what I really “want” to draw.
Even as I write this, I’m still nervous in taking that step in the direction that I really want to take.
It’s frustrating and nauseating. TTATT )
How did I end up like this anyway~. Now that I think of it, I didn’t start caring much about my art compared to others until I started putting stuff up on the internet and caring about how many views and favorites I got on my pictures.
Maybe a part of me is just afraid that if I do my best, like really do my best, that I would find out I’m not as good as I thought I was. Or that my ideas meant nothing much.
Even if that were to happen, I know that I shouldn’t be afraid or ashamed of that. Everyone has their own opinions. And what I like best is what I like best. Even if people disapprove of it or think it’s nothing much; it’s not going to change me from thinking that this is good and this is bad or that I like this and I don’t like that.
So… in the end, there’s absolutely no benefit in holding yourself back or doing something like “saving ideas”. You will never know how far you can go if you hold yourself back. And you will never improve if you don’t reach your limit and attempt to go beyond that limit.
That’s the true method to going pro with your artwork.
So, I just felt this morning, that for myself at least, I had to write this. I definitely had to write this. And I just hope that I will listen to this part of myself that wants to push farther with my artwork and doesn’t want to hold back anymore. It’s a waste. A real waste to think that way.
If you have an idea, and it doesn’t come out that well, you CAN redo it again in the future if you want to.
No one is going to tell you “You really screwed up on this, you shouldn’t do it over again.” No one is going to tell you “It’s been done already, come up with something else.” Remaking a work that you’ve done already and remaking a work someone else has done already are two different things. LOL.
So don’t be afraid of failure.
And most importantly, don’t “expect” failure. Because if you keep thinking “This isn’t gonna work out.” then just as you guessed, it’s not. You don’t have to fool yourself into thinking that it is gonna work out either.
Point is, you shouldn’t draw just because it will work or won’t work. You just draw because that’s what you thought of.
Drawing is making your imagination come to life.
So when you draw, instead of thinking “Will this get a lot of views?” “Will this be a success?” “Will this fail?” “Maybe people won’t like it.” “I should clean up my lines more since it might get more views.” “I should add more details so it can attract more attention.”, etc.
You should just forget about all that and focus on one thing..
Bringing your imagination into existence.
Not making it just be a thought anymore.
But making it be something that actually exists. In real life.
Something that everyone else can see or even touch or communicate with.
Those thoughts are the ONLY thoughts you should have when drawing. The ONLY ones. All the other thoughts you have are just “NOISE”. Noise that you need to plug your ears and shut your mind away from.
When you can bring a character or a scene or a picture that you’ve imagined to life on your canvas (whether it be traditional paper, digital paper, or something else) that will be the day that you “succeed”. That is “success”.
So, to me, and to anyone else who may have fallen into a similar situation and can’t seem to get themselves out of it, I hope me writing this in an attempt to be as honest as I possibly can with my feelings towards myself; will be able to help us all to move forward.
And one last thing is, don’t force yourself to draw either.
Remember that drawing is all about putting your imagination on the paper.
People tend to forget that drawing is similar to writing (including myself).
You can’t “draw” without an “image” or “thought” in your head.
The same way you can’t “write” without having something to “say”. The words and sentences have to be in your mind first before you can write it.
If you attempt to write without having anything you want to say.
Or you attempt to draw without having an image you want to project from your thoughts.
Then the result will end up being jibberish (complete and utter nonsense) and “of course” you’ll be unsatisfied with that.
So.. Just wait for that idea, that spark to come to you and draw it. Don’t do what I did, telling yourself to “wait”. When you have an idea you draw it. You don’t hold yourself back. If you do, you’ll find yourself stuck in a very frustrating and nauseating self-made art block.
So get some confidence and just do it. Drawing is fun. Do it because it’s fun. All other thoughts, please throw them away.
And now I’m gonna eat breakfast because I just woke up. LOL
lolllllll i have my pitchfork ready *starts poking computer screen kyary pamyu style*
u troll. TAT how dare u kick me out.
*starts studying and watching youtube and reading manga to fight loneliness and depreshun*
<- doing all this simultaneously is possible???
wow msn, wow pc, wow POWA OF JEWELPET it made your PC blushu doki doki and heat up like mad ahahahaha. …Can I get us a tinychat instead then or something? :x Should tax your PC less than msn would. :)
yeahs it did. but then it started overheating again xD i think it’s because i havent shut my pc off in days. too lazy. hopefully it’ll be better.
and i’m not gonna reblog anything to my games blog.
toooo manyyy games.
i didn’t think i’d find so many since lots of people had trouble finding any at all (that wasn’t a fandom, hentai, or touhou).
But I found so many xD lolz
i’m only going to upload them bit by bit and take my time with it. I’m really sick of blogging these indie games for now. xD Wanna do something else. Do me a favor, if you see me even attempting to put another indie game up tmrrw, tell me to stop. LOL
c u tmrrw *huggles*